Even though I study hard in my standards, it is still not enough. I fear that I’m not cut out for what I want or am suppose to be. I’m reminded of a passage in the Bible (Matthew 6:25-34) that talks about not worrying because God provides. But I am still worried that I will not make it in life. I think the phrase “not good enough” has dominated my entire life. I am prone to comparing myself with other people, and I know that’s not fair to myself. Someone told me that it’s not right to compare one’s bad parts to another person’s good parts. But I feel that my good parts do not even compare to someone’s bad parts. My “good” is not good enough, and I feel that it will never be.
February 28, 2018