My introvert personality, me seemingly constantly studying, and the need of alone time has caused me to not have that many close friends. Sometimes, I do get sad that no one hits me up to hang out or I’m the backup person, but I’m learning to be deal with it.
I think it’s more important to figure out how to deal with that loneliness than trying to fill the ache with something that’s not going to last. I’m not saying that you shouldn’t trust your friends. You should trust your friends. But people change, and that loneliness will never go away if you try to fill it with the people around you.
I’m a lot happier than I have been in previous years, but I’m still learning to be content with myself. Something I learned is that I don’t need other people to validate my value. I make my own identity; I’m invaluable. If other people don’t see my worth, that’s not my problem. They’re missing out on this wonderful person (me), and that’s their lost not mine. That concept made me feel powerful. In the end, I realize that being content with myself means realizing my own worth in the eyes of myself and not in the eyes of others.