In my English literature class, we’re currently reading Heart of Darkness by Joseph Conrad. The teacher asked us to write this question down on the inside cover of the book: Can I go into the darkest part of myself and come out ok?
For my first three years of high school, there was a lot of uncertainty and chaos going on in my life. My environment had changed; my friend group shifted; GPA and SAT suddenly mattered a great deal (and continue to do so); the family life was not going too great. During that time, I reached a very low point where I really questioned everything around me.
Now as a senior, I reflect upon the past years of my life in high school. The problems still exist. But they’re only as big as I make them to be. I’ve realized how far I have come, emotionally and spiritually. Without those difficult times, I would not be the person I am today. In this regard, I am thankful for the times I felt helpless because it showed me that I can make it through. I can manage life and be ok.
So, I think I can answer the question. Yes, I can go into the darkest part of myself and come out ok (albeit there may be some scratches and bruises). But I will come out stronger and rise above the darkness.